Now and ZenRemember when I wrote that I had a job working with small children with other abilities? It's hard to believe that I made it through the school year.

Last summer I underwent a severe depression in which I lost 25+ pounds and became anemic. I returned to the job with no energy. The kids were all new kindergarteners with autism, tantrums, screaming for hours, hitting, biting, pinching, hitting themselves with their heads on the floor. You had to be there.

And then at night I had to get up about four to five times to go to the bathroom. I was getting no sleep and working with these children.

By springtime I was sleeping better and beginning to understand the children a little better. And now that the semester is over until the end of August, I'm not really that tired.

There should be a lot to do. The hedonist in me wants to just play, play, play. The creative spirit wants to make music. The spiritual part of me wants to read uplifting books and do seva.

Anyone who has time off this summer and wants to go on a trip--write to me.